Author: Cathy Vartuli
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I Feel Betrayed
– By my body, my inner child, EFT, myself, Abraham. – What was the expectation? – How much do I expect people to betray me?
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I Take on Too Much Responsibility
– I’ve taken care of everyone since I was a kid – I MUST make them happy – I have to make up for all that time – I have to save them, no one else will – My parents needed me to be in charge
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I’m Afraid to Feel Good, I Can’t Enjoy Myself
– I don’t deserve to be happy – I can’t feel better than my mother – Parental programing, shame and guilt – I’m not up to Mom’s standards:
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What Would It Take To Feel More Free?
– I’d have to be less afraid – Bigger business, better wife, perfect product – Compulsion to have “it” – Self-judgements getting in the way of my dream
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Their Judgements are Stopping Me!
– What a stupid idiot – Constant judgement from Mom – Its all my fault – Need to be brave no matter what – My very existance was judged
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Oh Dad, How Could You…?
– Wanting to bond with Dad – Ignoring my needs – Anger at dad for abuse – He threatened her – Looking for faults
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Oh The Time I’ve Lost – These Old Regrets
– I cheated on my boyfriend – I lost all that time with their intolerance of the learning process – “Don’t abondon me” energy