Author: Cathy Vartuli
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Their Judgements are Stopping Me!
– What a stupid idiot – Constant judgement from Mom – Its all my fault – Need to be brave no matter what – My very existance was judged
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Oh Dad, How Could You…?
– Wanting to bond with Dad – Ignoring my needs – Anger at dad for abuse – He threatened her – Looking for faults
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Oh The Time I’ve Lost – These Old Regrets
– I cheated on my boyfriend – I lost all that time with their intolerance of the learning process – “Don’t abondon me” energy
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Freedom To Express Myself
– Too much shame – Too difficult, they won’t like me – Just can’t! – Never encouraged – Stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about! – Slapped down – Oher people’s judgements – Out of control
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Rejection Hurts!
– Fear of rejection is holding me back – I was reprimanded for my singing – I have to prove my own worth – I can’t express myself
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I’m Too Needy
– I need love and affection – If anyone loves me, there must be something wrong with them – I need to not appear needy – I’ve been used by those who were needy
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Mother’s Day
– She can’t accept me as I am – She wasn’t there for me – I took care of her! – Mom went away emotionally – She didn’t really see me