These 2008 sessions include focused teaching and open exploration, primarily facilitated by Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli with community contributors in some sessions.
Begin with one of the refined Guides below, or browse the original recordings chronologically. Each transcript was generated automatically and may contain errors.
Focused Guides
- I Can’t Trust My Body To Heal
- I’m Taking Too Long To Heal
- Treat Your Job Like a One-Customer Business
- Trust Is Not a Promise You Will Never Be Let Down
- When Writer’s Block Is Protecting You From the Project Behind the Project
- You Do Not Have to Learn It All: Let Curiosity Find the Key Distinctions
- Your Thriving Business – 2008-11-23
- Your Thriving Business – 2008-12-13
- Your Thriving Business – 2008-12-27
Guides Drawing From Several Sessions
- Ask Guidance for Possible Yeses, Not the Right Answer
- Leading-Edge Creator or Natural Maintainer? Stop Making Your Working Style Wrong
- Power Without Tension: Work From a Thriving State
- When Someone’s Anger Makes Your Body Submit
- You Can Do Anything Does Not Mean You Must Do Everything
Explore the Original Sessions
The sessions are arranged chronologically. Recording titles and topic notes, where available, can help you find a useful starting point.
January 2008
January 1, 2008 — Open Call
Being a selfish brat; Vibrational Vantage Points… and how to get there; Really need to work on my body; Going against a body NOT YET or… listening more deeply; “Let Go” of authority over son…; Parenting environment of mutual SAFETY and respect; 2008 planned out… playing with experiences for th next three months.
January 4, 2008 — Open Call
EFT practice every day to be “surprisingly calm and confident no matter what.”; Tweak my energy around my work; Have to be with him every moment… or else he’ll leave; EFT & massage; Body NO (guidance) rather than simply fear or resistance; I failed to fix him!
January 6, 2008 — Open Call
Feeling confident posting on the forum; Feeling alienated; Relentless criticism; Don’t I have to match what I say to other people’s moods?; Surprise at being called by the “teacher”; Anxious about the heavy saga; Imagination, dreaming, exploring in thought; Creativity choked off… by me!
January 9, 2008 — Open Call
Down vibes leading to intense physical pain; Anxiety that comes out of the blue; Softening rather than deepening using the anxiety constricted breathing exercise; https://www.thrivingnow.com/anxiety-constricted-breathing/; Emotional postures; Frustration, sacrifice, freedom… I won’t be a good girl; Difficulty having fun; Curiousity and understanding; Golf performance anxiety… yip!… a “damn” in my putt.
January 13, 2008 — Open Call
Everyone and everything in my way; Doing too much for kids that isn’t urgent?; Going from yes to yes to yes; Rising anxiety dancing with rising stomach acid; Getting back to “I’m okay.”; High blood pressure; “I don’t want to be OLD!”; Abraham-Hicks; Vulnerability feeling after hysterectomy; Borrowing benefits review.
January 15, 2008 — Open Call
Safe with myself?; Soothing the place in us that feels the most tense; Locked and nervous in my pelvis; Shame and guilt… 10 big ones; Pressure to forgive myself; Single mother shame; Stop judging overweight people… disgusting, stupid, lazy, shouldn’t be out in public; I feel safe… ZERO!… to an 8; Safe with nature; My marriage is in trouble… cultivating emotional detachment with love for self.
January 19, 2008 — Open Call
I don’t feel comfortable with my child (because his behaviors remind me of my ex-husband and father); Feeling appreciation for SELF and the pain fo seeking it from others; Angry at my body for giving me so much pain; Listening for RELIEF to tap into body guidance… and releasing resistance; I never get anywhere with my ideas; Inner Self directed vs. getting feedback from others.
January 22, 2008 — Open Call
is born!; Dad and chiropractors; ANGRY at the whole 90-year-old situation; Deep sadness at 10 yesterday; Anxiety everywhere at a 10; MOTHER in my BUSINESS… and that makes me scared; Tinnitus: difficulty fixing it with EFT; Addressing the suffering first, telling the body it can be calm and relaxed anyway; First in-office corporate job; Making proposals to the “boss” from a place of confidence; Feeling like a panicked child in the workplace; The Abe Quote from today I feel is applicable to the session about caring for a parent where we really do not control their pain level:; Nothing is more debilitating than to care about something you can’t do anything about. And you can’t do anything about your adult children (or adult parents! -Rick). You can want better for them, and maybe even begin to provide something for them, but in the long run, you cannot do anything about someone else?s vibration other than hold them in the best light you can, mentally, and then project that to them. And sometimes, distance makes that much more possible than being up close to them.; Excerpted from a workshop in Ashland, OR on Saturday, July 19th, 2003.
January 25, 2008 — Open Call
Teaching First EFT Class Tomorrow – stomach anxious (7); Scheduling clients for balance; I’ve GOT TO feeling, obligations, and guidance; Anxious about new baby coming… Take the energy where it is and Rock With It.
Guides drawn from this session:
January 27, 2008 — Open Call
Physical aspects of my health; Feeling better but the symptoms haven’t changed; Huge overload at work coming… and I feel it in my chest and stomach; Dreams at night waking me up; Curious as to whether the body can provide moisture to eyes overnight; My Dad still pops my bubble… and always has; Caregiving for terminally ill mother… I feel impeded in my own life.
January 31, 2008 — Open Call
Gratitude; Pregnant! Yeah! Struggle over?; Twitching pain in my back; Soft breathing with all the feelings of a deep breath; Vibrational scale – scared of those powerful feelings; Mood swings and criticism; Not worthy of being on this Earth; I need a BARGAIN! I need to be thrifty and generous to the max.
February 2008
February 8, 2008 — Open Call
Most emotional week in a long time; I don’t fit in; I care about what other people think about me; Emotional guidance system; Lots of tears this morning; Lump in my throat.
February 10, 2008 — Open Call
Zumba training and surprising confidence; Things I need to do to pick up my income; I don’t feel safe being successful; Mom: “Dirty money” and more negative images of wealth; Frustration and confusion with negative health side effects of working hard; Addictive quality of stress and constant attentiveness; Growing my business; I’m not good enough; Starting the day off with feelings of fear, fight; Listening and shifting body sensations.
Guides drawn from this session:
February 10, 2008 — Open Call
Conflicted feelings about Mother; Offer what is a YES; Skin issues, rashes, embarassment, inflammation; I’m too emotional, too sensitive, and need to grow a thicker skin… don’t I?; Why do I create so many distractions?; Always something wrong with me!; Afraid of expressing myself; Staying in marriage is death, leaving is scary; Corporate “authority” issues; Nasty, mean, horrible mentor; Being the vibrational leader/mentor.
February 12, 2008 — Open Call
Ongoing burning red eyes; Your body’s barometer of internal stress; Cool-down process using EFT and other self-care approaches; Want to do kundalini yoga in morning… don’t feel safe bringing my power up; Desire calm, regulated sleep.
Guides drawn from this session:
February 15, 2008 — Open Call
Mentor from hell removed; Setting healthy boundaries and empowered responses when we’re in fight/flight/freeze mode; Control issue: 13-year-olds in the classroom; Pain in the neck limiting movement; Property I am “supposed” to sell for the family; What I’m SUPPOSED to do; Hung up… and it’s killing me; Burned off feeling in my mouth; The emotion that might be behind the physical sensations.
February 18, 2008 — Open Call
Victim or Angry or Forgiving; Feeling dumb stupid in my chest; Global Anxiety… I need their approval; What’s going to be EXPECTED of me?; Fear about making money, and being peaceful/happy… based on the Bible teachings of my parents; Wagging your tail to start relieving tension headache; Making things great and encouraging OTHERS… not for me to win; Success focusing on emotions to relieve symtoms in my mouth; Becoming a certain age… sad I don’t have what I wanted SO much; Connecting wise heart and head; Tasting deliciousness with my heart.
February 24, 2008 — Open Call
From totally, amazingly grateful to really anxious in one day; Holding me back… If I am “too successful” I’d have to be someone I can be… I could never be that deserving; Boatload of responsibility; I gotta get it RIGHT… I gotta know EVERYTHING or something terrible will definitely happen.
February 24, 2008 — Open Call
Zumba: I’ll be teaching my first classes!; Tapping on old girlfriends; Relationship issues with ex-husband and current mate; I push too hard… is that what drove him away?; Business/financial support relationship issues; Scared: I don’t have any other place to get it; Fear of speaking in front of group: sweaty, hard to breathe; Discomfort feeling all their attention on me… when I am not YET the alpha leader.
March 2008
March 4, 2008 — Open Call
Kids: being centered and tapping; Giving and receiving; People do not take me seriously!; Relationships, marriage, guilt, guidance.
March 7, 2008 — Open Call
Anger at loan guy… Countrywide rage!; Attached to the outcome; Lost finding core issue; He’s going to find me ugly… like they did; Sick for three days; I gotta be a DO-er!
March 9, 2008 — Open Call
Back pain and opportunity to heal; You can’t do what you want to do; I’m not good enough (6); I must prove that I’m okay!; Throwing up (releasing); Going to neutral; So much anger!; Parenting… sometimes feels like an ugly, horrible, dirty battle; Offering more respect than he deserves.
March 9, 2008 — Open Call
More on back pain and structural imbalance; Clearing clutter… feeling stuck; Chunking big projects down into NOT too many pieces; Making decisions on what is to stay, what is not yet ready to go, and what is ripe to move on to someone ready to appreciate it; See also:; https://www.thrivingnow.com/getting-started-on-clutter/.
March 15, 2008 — Open Call
Cough has returned for third time; Angry at myself over financial issue; Dull fish in my head; Evil eel attacked me; Legal stuff… and needing to “know it all” beforehand; Body yes, body no; Activating better results from thyroid hormones; Always in an anxious state, procrastination, moving towards “tolerable”.
March 16, 2008 — Open Call
Difficult to enjoy where I am at…; Practical searching for mutual YES… including making the list of “should’s” into “yeah, it would be nice if’s”; Haven’t DONE what I COULD be doing with this TIME; Listening to deeper intuitive guidance to separate “blocks” from “guidance”.
Guides drawn from this session:
March 21, 2008 — Open Call
Blooming my creativity; The “balk” feeling in my uterus area; Curious… or troublemaker?; Long term relationship in turmoil; Money pressure… knotted in my stomach!
March 23, 2008 — Open Call
Doubting myself; I should know 10 times more!; What makes me happy?; It’s MY fault! Okay, so now what?; Blame in the body; Visualization to promote healing; Intimacy.
March 27, 2008 — Open Call
I blame my mother for everything; She never paid attention to me… and that is still true!; Waiting until I’m going to be disappointed by him; The best relationships bring out all our insecurities… for healing!; Bladder infection; Impatient for the relationship to resolve itself; I’m not good enough.
March 31, 2008 — Open Call
Blowout with husband today; Re-establishing lines of communication… with Source first!; https://www.thetappingsolution.com; They really dropped the blame on me!; “I should do more” and the blame email address; INTENSE financial panic from overpaying a bill; The physical recovery realities of Flight responses; Bladder infection, emotions; Cracking, old arthritis frustration in the knees.
April 2008
April 6, 2008 — Open Call
Tension in my belly, shoulders, neck, & head; Emotionally sensitive to my father’s dangerous energies; Our natural submissive response to the Alpha; In order to make sure I do everything right…; The gap between us; Revisiting the moray eel… can’t stand negative surprises; An example of being the dominant vibration and letting others “catch up”.
Guides drawn from this session:
April 9, 2008 — Open Call
Dread that grips me; I won’t have enough to meet my needs… chest… shoulders… neck; Difficulty meeting my writing quota at my job; Obsessive… perfectionistic… and want to be simply smooth and fast; It isn’t “right” if I didn’t put my personal touch (polish?) on it.
April 12, 2008 — Open Call
I’m a Disgusting, Bad Person; EFT Points clarification; Eating what I please, in the moment I want it…; Moving towards more sensual pleasure… turning up the volume rather than the quantity; Shame sauce on everything I eat; Angry at him because….
April 13, 2008 — Open Call
Commitment to relationships when we’re going in different directions; Guilt and fear… God is gonna get me… if I break this rule; Headache.
April 15, 2008 — Open Call
Awareness of fright; Everyone is out to get me… any way they can; Public speaking in front of peer groups; Standing up in front of the class to be judged; Alphas, dominance, new tribes, and the primitive brain; Who would want HER???; I’m tall, pigeon-toed, ugly… duckling.
April 19, 2008 — Open Call
Arranging my life to have fun; Knee really hurting… when I bike… not when I dance; Compelled to eat everything; Sister health crisis and joint journey; Confidentiality on calls: welcome to use made-up nicknames.
April 20, 2008 — Open Call
Is it writer’s block or deeper concerns?; She was scowling at me; Food stuff… cat hunting, horse grazing, and comfort/satisfaction.
Guides drawn from this session:
April 21, 2008 — Open Call
Going against guidance; I did know… and I went against it; Opened up all this physical stuff; Pissed at myself; Sinus clearing; Kidney strengthening.
April 29, 2008 — Open Call
Opening chit-chat; Storytelling; How do I know when it’s “enough”; I give in to keep the peace; Uh-oh, here it comes; Sexual protection and safety; Developing a good solid NO gives you a good solid YES; Saying NO to my son.
April 30, 2008 — Open Call
I’m dumb about some things; I couldn’t understand what they meant… I heard something different… and they thought I was stupid; It is what it is… tax forms and other stuff; Ashamed of myself in public.
May 2008
May 7, 2008 — Open Call
What is an Intentional Business?; Business or hobby; You’re already in your own business, even if working as an employee; it is a matter of conscious intention; “Too much energy” – have to drag the whole world; Can’t handle it… it’s too much; Challenges of being an employee where they don’t engage the best of you.
Guides drawn from this session:
May 11, 2008 — Open Call
Mother Issues – Morning Call; Mother-in-law has alzheimer’s… and I feel abandoned.; Mother expected me to mother her… and still does!; I can’t be honest with my mother.; I have to do things RIGHT… or else.
May 11, 2008 — Open Call
Mother Issues – Evening Call; I’m not good enough…; She never listened to me… and she still doesn’t!; We never bonded.; She totally rejected me… I feel overwhelm and fear.
May 14, 2008 — Open Call
Procrastination and anxiety over graduation party… which she doesn’t even want!; She’s a lot like her Daddy; Offer only what is a YES for you; Ups and downs; Happiness tax… I’ll end up paying for being happy!; Inner three year old.
May 15, 2008 — Open Call
SELF-DOUBT!; Here I go again…; Deep sadness and heart energy exercises; Moving energy; EFT’s way of addressing and releasing energy.
May 21, 2008 — Open Call
Pain in the neck with emotional root causes; Dealing with TIME… and must-be-clean houses; Mom’s Rules of Order and Cleanliness; Not enough TIME, money, food; Take an old experience, separate it out into “thorns” and remove each one; Is it really safe (much less FUN) to bring these people together for a “graduation party”?
May 25, 2008 — Open Call
Menstrual Cramps… and emotional root causes; Appropriate prospects… do I have to spend time on EVERYONE… even the ones that I don’t like?; Saying “NO”; Somewhat emotionally abusive husband; Moving towards SAFETY never cuts off options; Son’s asthma symptoms; Sudden partial paralysis on my face; I’m “paralyzed” from moving forward on these two papers.
May 28, 2008 — Open Call
Allowing a relationship; Not feeling SAFE in relationships… upsetting for my children… or for ME?; Job and Abundance; There’s never enough, not safe, not secure, need to be careful, money will run out, never doing enough; I feel pigeonholed… TRAPPED!; How to re-focus your vibration towards self-appreciation even when “trapped”; I feel I may slip back into being SICK… so I don’t have to deal with it.
Guides drawn from this session:
May 30, 2008 — Open Call
I’m late and I need to get my work quota done today!; Working smart and fast… letting go of the perfectionist imperative; Power without the tension; Procrastination… outer deadlines work!; Want to be in creative flow with excitement and ease; The “ripening” quality of projects; Pain in my neck & shoulder better; Going through a traumatic weekend tapping on all the specific moments…; Taking it more SLOWLY with the early aspects!
Guides drawn from this session:
May 31, 2008 — Open Call
Pain in right leg & hip… listening… want it to go away; It’s SO hard for me to have fun; They disapprove of me; Some grief issues; A new kind of painting; I’m RESPONSIBLE for making everyone else feel good; Being the dominant vibration; I’m worth the HARD work… and does it have to be hard?
June 2008
June 4, 2008 — Open Call
Situations where I don’t feel good enough; Don’t I need to care about what they think of me?; 8th grade graduation memory… makes me want to curl up in a ball; Travel and training anxiety; Do we really have to learn it ALL… or can we focus on that which makes us Curious?
Guides drawn from this session:
June 8, 2008 — Open Call
I would HAVE TO please my patron… and I get a trong body NO from that; How to re-perceive a situation to give yourself MAXIMUM freedom; I do not feel SAFE losing 10 kilos; Overwhelmed by trying to organize a workshop in three weeks; Using STRESSED states of being as a motivator… or THRIVING states of being to be eager and enthusiastic and curious; Cookies and Candy in the afternoon… after they leave and I feel rejected; My last hope….
Guides drawn from this session:
June 16, 2008 — Open Call
Overwhelmed with travel issues; “I’m just not together”; Frustrated family and friends won’t listen to me about EFT; Friend in hospital with suicidal depression… and I feel inadequate and a bit guilty; Letting go of relationships; Grandpa died… and he was the only one that played with me; Competitve stuff at work; I had to be his #1.
June 18, 2008 — Open Call
Driving around lost… I feel like an IDIOT!; I’m so worried about my friend’s codeine addiction; Betrayal, helplessness, and guilty secrets; Solitude; I just love being blamed for something I didn’t do…; Clutter… or cluttered?; I don’t want to get rid of MY stuff… just to make Dad happy; Do I feel SAFE here?
June 20, 2008 — Open Call
I did it wrong. Wrong decision. Didn’t follow my intuition. And I refuse to not blame myself.; Time boundaries: everyone is calling and NEEDING me!; Where am I on the priority list?; My wife and I are doing lots of different things; I’m judging her… where did I learn that?; Spiritual-kinesthetic experiences; Can’t seem to make myself buy that ticket to the family reunion; Getting a clear yes around one person; I promised!
June 22, 2008 — Open Call
Confused and overwhelmed; I’d be a wimp if I left Applebees just because it was overwhelming.; Freaked out by storms… and with good reason!; I talked to him for two hours by phone and it was okay… is that okay?; Do I have a NO?; Bringing my physical/emotional power up.
June 25, 2008 — Open Call
Fatigue in my body; Addressing a memory of myself when I was so utterly fatigued and unsupported; Trusting my feelings; What is my body telling me?; Conflicted messages, levels of listening, WANTING to speed up the process.
June 27, 2008 — Open Call
Allowing myself to be happy; I focus on problems; If I maintain a negative state of mind, I won’t be disappointed; Feelings coming out as tears; “I want to be HEARD!”.
June 28, 2008 — Open Call
Hip pain from falls; I am unsupported… and that makes me tear up; Building a trust relationship with our body; Garage sales, melodrama, and people who get along too well seem attractive… and BORING!; I’ve become overly sensitive to irritating car noises.
July 2008
July 6, 2008 — Open Call
Same business for over 20 years… and feeling stagnant; I get scared when i don’t know what to DO; What I am moving towards is taking me away from those I love… and that can’t be right; Exciting adrenaline surges vs. disappointment; Leading v. Maintenance… different strokes for different folks.
Guides drawn from this session:
July 7, 2008 — Open Call
Revulsion towards work; Memories of school… stupid rules, wasting my talent; I do not have the WILL for it… and maybe that’s good?; “You can’t do THAT!” in my head…; Discerning guidance from body no when there is a mix of attractive and repulsive energies in what we observe.
Guides drawn from this session:
July 14, 2008 — Open Call
My alcoholic brother moved in, is using me, and won’t move out; Conflicted energy between compassion and having my boundaries not respected; Getting school supplies for my kids… shouldn’t I be able to help others, too, right now?; Hotter/Colder and emotional guidance system; Dread asking for help… not allowed; Ingredients she’s missing… someone to share with, safety, love, compassion, kindness, being heard, being seen; Doubt my hip will get better.
July 23, 2008 — Open Call
You can do anything you set your mind to…; I am never good enough… I can’t do all that!; Intuitive decision making around something simple… vacation; Addressing past traumas where I feel unsafe bringing them to the group; 15 year-old daughter’s intense emotional outbursts.
Guides drawn from this session:
July 25, 2008 — Business Issues
Staff development, job descriptions, and vibrational leadership; Dealing with criticism when you feel like “I am not enough… because I could always do more.”; Mid-year staff reviews, constructive criticism; Golf… want to do well… and how it might relate to business.
Guides drawn from this session:
July 31, 2008 — Open Call
Hip pain – they say I have to have a hip replacement; Getting clarity on natural vs. surgical options and complimentary choices; Chiro twice a week, adjustments do not hold; I don’t like physical work!; Choice over cleaning the laundry room; Wanting to be on a structured schedule… and NOT wanting to.; Flowing easily and naturally from the house at 745am.
August 2008
August 2, 2008 — Open Call
Want to be patient and trusting in the process of abundance showing up…; Freak out when people cancel… makes me nervous about the future; Focusing during “down” times on what is RIPE; Change my line of work… not getting paid enough; Transition 18 months… and I’ve only been at it a short time; You can’t do it! You can’t make it!; Not SUPPOSED to be independent; Can’t do it! Don’t have the discipline; Things I want to write; Developing a vision of success that attracts you (rather than repels you).
Guides drawn from this session:
August 4, 2008 — Open Call
Commission checks… love them and they make me anxious; Worrying how to pay my bills; Major financial loss 10 years ago… and I feel it in my gut now; Getting older… less time to make up for…; Received a large sum of money from my sister… and I feel UNWORTHY; Something always happens and I am going to lsoe it; I didn’t earn it… I have to work HARD for it… or I feel like I’m cheating on The Test; Hugs to all!; Alone… by myself… connecting to others; Massage… touch… health.
August 8, 2008 — Open Call
May have to kick some people out of a house I own; They are my charity… not.; Moving out the conflicted energy and clarity around the subject starts being attracted; Trying to do brochure… against a body no; Again, getting into alignment with possibilities as we clear the negative noise; How else can I do it? (market my EFT practice); Meditation CDs… right for me?
August 13, 2008 — Open Call
Overwhelm from government funding cuts, boss that is afraid.; Terror in my throat; Afraid of technology.
August 23, 2008 — Open Call
Relationship issues that trigger my shadow side; I feel like a Loser in her presence; Regret that I’ve been so blown out of the water; Seems that EFT takes more effort for me than the buzz would indicate it “should”; How I’m different in SUBTLE yet profound ways.
September 2008
September 1, 2008 — Open Call
Learning how to trust… and what IS trust?; Relying on other people not to let me down; Safety & respect; Timidity… tension… sweating… on the spot (or spot on!); What’s the POINT?; “You’re really looking good, Auntie!”…so naturally I gained 5 pounds; Sacrificial vs. dancing hearts.
Guides drawn from this session:
September 6, 2008 — Open Call
All these rules!; They’ll call me arrogant; Hip pain; Listening to the body; Being stuck; Letting go of Mom and Dad’s messages.
September 11, 2008 — Open Call
Guilty taking his money; Its my job to make other people happy; They’re obligated to let me help them; When will I ever become more stable?; Who would I be without this anxiety?
September 24, 2008 — Open Call
Almost unbearable job… I want to quit and don’t feel I can; “All that I’ve saved for is going down the drain.”; Reach for OK… First!; Perfectionist… but what does it mean for something to be Perfect?; Not good enough… big ball of cement filled with tears.
September 27, 2008 — Open Call
My product is too expensive; Selling a unique experience; Fear of being alone in the dark; You never finish what you started; Feeling unsafe; Extending the edge of awareness.
October 2008
October 7, 2008 — Open Call
Abused stomach; Resentment about not being able to do what I want; Work issues; Anger, can’t seem to get out; Hearing body “whispers”; Praying correctly.
October 11, 2008 — Open Call
If the state of the economy is causing you stress, this call may help.; I’m ok even if the world is going nuts; Controlling our environment; Fear and anxiety at the state of the world; Turbulence in my stomach; Not getting results on physical issues with tapping; Too much responsibility.
October 15, 2008 — Open Call
Preverbal inner child: Who is going to take care of me?; Something is wrong here.; My husband’s job situation; Security is HIS responsibility… and he is not doing it the way I need him to.; Can’t go on like THIS; Inner child at the library writing a paper against his will; I need to be punished for ____.
October 21, 2008 — Open Call
Fibromyalgia, pain control; Overwhelmed, stiff, achy neck; “I’m never going to get over it!” (8); “I need to DO a lot to be a worthy person.” (8); “I’m not worthy.” (9 -> 3 -> 2).
October 24, 2008 — Open Call
Better Energetic Boundaries; Mother energies: Hopelessness, despair, scattered, lack of organization AND love, kindness, generosity, creativity; How can I trust myself to KNOW?; I don’t want to be BAD. It upsets others.
Guides drawn from this session:
October 29, 2008 — Open Call
Integrating right and left brains; I want to be part of the group but I blew it again!; Conflict: to belong or not; Trying too hard; Forgetting to breath.
November 2008
November 5, 2008 — Open Call
Breaking out in hives; Anger, they are pressuring me; Apprehension about hopefulness; All by myself; Chronic high blood pressure; It’s unavoidable with aging.
November 8, 2008 — Open Call
Don’t want to be a conditional giver; Not enough money in the house; Not enough vitality; Being ill keeps me safe from bad feelings; Long list and obligation; Changing a “To Do” list into a “possibility” list.
Guides drawn from this session:
November 13, 2008 — Open Call
Here it goes again!; It is just too much for me; I have to earn my exhaustion; How do I let myself relax?; So many things to choose from, feeling overwhelmed; Wanting freedom but needing a niche.
Guides drawn from this session:
November 15, 2008 — Open Call
Okay to be DIFFERENT; Resolving a boundary violation with family members… it would be more productive to communicate my feelings to a Big Rock; Don’t tread on me… finally standing up for my place in line; Tinnitus… It was not safe, and I feel that still in my neck.
November 20, 2008 — Open Call
Grief; Pain in my achilles tendons; I’m NOT good enough; Don’t sleep soundly when he’s in bed with me; They will LEAVE; Deep sadness in pit of stomach.
November 25, 2008 — Open Call
Being okay with the holidays being different now; Guilt: “I’m a bad Mom.”; Tension paying a bill… exercise to know how much is “ripe” to pay; Self-Doubt that gave me an OUT; It’s “safe” to tell the truth… not?; Lot of good changes, masters degree success… now go for a PhD? What is my body telling me?
November 29, 2008 — Open Call
Pain Relief and Body Listening; Lots of synergy about old, stale dreams and releasing them; Holding on to old dreams from years ago.; Need to keep my commitment to the old dreams and the people in them.; Dreams don’t come true.; Dad didn’t live his dreams, can I?; I haven’t taken advantage of old dreams, don’t know if I can have new ones.; Hurt and grief in my wrists.
November 30, 2008 — Open Call
Brief intro with Rick singing “Little Bunny Foo Foo”; Guilt about accepting money; I have to suffer to deserve it, don’t I?; Being ok with lag time; Feeling trapped/smoothered; If I trust people I can get hurt; Quote Rick used at the end of the call:; “Some things you’re not letting happen right now because the timing isn’t perfect for you. Some you’re not letting happen because you are very aware of where you are. But all things, as they are happening, are happening in perfect order. And if you will relax and begin saying, ‘Everything in its perfect time. Everything is unfolding. And I’m enjoying where I am now, in relationship to where I’m going. Content where I am, and eager for more,’ that is the perfect vibrational stance.”; Excerpted from a workshop in Kansas City, KS on Wednesday, September 17th, 2003, Abraham-Hicks.
December 2008
December 8, 2008 — Open Call
Overwhelmed, tired and sad from a move; Hard to take time for myself; No permission for “me” time; Inner child tapping on deserving time and attention; Having trouble talking to my kids; Showing them I love them without words.
December 11, 2008 — Open Call
Nasty Email from “Boss” about my “failures”; I am doing this to develop my discipline, structure, efficiency; Making sure I KNOW I’m okay ALL THE TIME; Allowing my style to shine; Life is PLAY.
December 16, 2008 — Open Call
Out of control eating at the Holidays; Like a kid in the candy store; Looking for the feeling more than the food; Get it while it’s there!; Allowing joy in during the Holidays; Not enough time to do everything.
December 20, 2008 — Open Call
Tension from a medical crisis on Christmas Eve; Lots of drama and trauma; I wanted someone to carry me; Trouble asking for help; I don’t believe I can get what I want; Mom was NOT a good pony delivery system.
December 22, 2008 — Open Call
I’m not a good/fun Mom; I need them to need me; He’s demanding gifts; Demanding vs desperate; People might just be putting up with me; Being as honest and open as the situation warrents.
December 31, 2008 — Open Call
If I’m not obsessed with food/my weight/some guy…; Energy balancing with meditation, qi gong, tapping; Motivation or inspiration; When motivation is gone, what replaces it?