These 2012 sessions include focused teaching, open exploration, and special guest conversations, primarily facilitated by Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli with community contributors in some sessions.
Begin with one of the refined Guides below, or browse the original recordings chronologically. Each transcript was generated automatically and may contain errors.
Focused Guides
- A Feeling Is Not an Identity
- Allow More Abundance by Relaxing Preconditions
- Ask Clearly Without Needing a Yes
- Choose a Positive Challenge Your Body Can Accept
- Choosing Joy Without Forcing Positivity
- Comfort Zone or Dead Zone? Rest, Tension, and Growth
- Commitment Without Losing Freedom
- Decompress and Reconnect After the Holidays
- Expecting Rejection Before Anyone Has Answered
- Finding Clarity When Several Good Things Compete
- Finding Ease Around Family Without Abandoning Boundaries
- Inner Beauty Is More Than Your Form
- Let the Positive Count
- Let Yourself Shine Without Becoming a Target
- Mindful Relationships: Attention That Energizes Connection
- Recovering Passion After Learning to Shut It Down
- Relationship Self-Esteem: Stay Connected Without Leaving Yourself
- Releasing Old Holiday Hurts Without Repeating Them
- Releasing Shame Without Erasing Your Humanity
- Releasing the Brakes: Freeze, Trauma, and Gentle Forward Movement
- Romance Without Obligation: Love Languages, Apology, and Boundaries
- Savor the Finish: Let Completion Register
- Scared or Activated? Learning to Read the Difference
- Seeing Your Beauty as Your Body Changes
- Self-Doubt Does Not Always Mean Stop
- Self-Love: Connecting With Your Own Heart
- Taking Risks When Failure Feels Public
- Taming Spooky Fears: Vulnerability Without Performing Smart
- The Pain of Not Getting What You Want
- When Safety Itself Feels Unsafe
- When Your Powerful Possibilities Feel Dangerous
Guides Drawing From Several Sessions
- Being All of You Without Performing for Approval
- Being Different, Being Seen, and Finding Your Tribe
- Communicating With a Partner When Old Patterns Take Over
- Grounding When Your Mind Is Doing Too Much
- Holding Space Without Walking on Eggshells
- Hypervigilance and the Sleep That Never Feels Safe
- Letting Go Without Guilt: Possessions, Intentions, and New Chapters
- Outgrowing People Without Making Them Wrong
- Overthinking Anxiety: Returning to the Whole Body
- Permission to Relax Without Losing Love or Momentum
- Releasing Old Dreams and Borrowed Burdens
- Self-Forgiveness After ‘I Messed It All Up’
- Shame, Rescue, and the Belief You Must Save Them
- Social Safety for Introverts Coming Out of Seclusion
- Vulnerability With Resilience
- When a New Career Activates Old Visibility Fear
- When Authority Twists Reality
- When Inspiration Dies Under Perfectionism
- When Rest Threatens Your Identity
- When Security Feels Like There Is Only One Option
- When Success Feels Like It Will Hurt Someone Else
- When ‘Supposed To’ Makes the Task Harder
- Your Concerns Matter: Asking to Be Taken Seriously
Explore the Original Sessions
The sessions are arranged chronologically. The recording titles and topic notes help you find a useful starting point.
January 2012
January 4, 2012 — Open Call
Others don’t take my concerns seriously; Confused about who to trust; I get to ask for something different; Shoulder rehab.
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January 12, 2012 — Finding My Clarity
What would you like clarity around?; What to say in emails; Want more income, new clients, and time for myself; Keep it or toss it?.
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January 13, 2012 — Open Call
Five clients who just completed… now I am nervous; Surprised and shaken about how I looked; New dentist… supposed to be good but….
January 19, 2012 — Open Call
Eye squinting, persistent anger and apprehension.
January 21, 2012 — Open Call
Limiting belief: If I do something really well, people will suffer; Dad died when I was 5; Tons and tons of decisions QUICK.
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January 30, 2012 — Open Call
Relationship with my kids at dinner (I feel left out); I blew it on Saturday when I didn’t speak up… or did I?; My nightmares wake me; Not doing enough… or overdoing.
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February 2012
February 8, 2012 — Creating Community with Special Guest Kelly Bryson
Kelly Bryson, Author of Don’t Be Nice… Be Real, www.languageofcompassion.com; Sources of Love and Peace; Communitarian v. Collectivist; Tribal Technologies; Don’t get even… get ODD!; Friday night Shenanigans; Alive, Authentic, True; How’s FRED doing? (Group Energy Field); Sacred Activism; Our best growth comes from people who KNOW you and LOVE you; Grow in appreciation, intimacy, and trust in each other; Invite people to meet their needs; “No one is allowed to GIVE IN”.
February 9, 2012 — Releasing Shame
Ashamed for stepping forward; Tom boy… and I do want to be authentic; Teary… alcoholic shame.
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February 14, 2012 — Open Call
Believing I’m not enough; I love the GROWING feeling; Need to help myself; TRAVEL in the mind (visualization and more); Feel beat up; Afraid of being afraid of being afraid of being afraid.
February 15, 2012 — Open Call
Not all I could be; Putting myself OUT THERE; Something really stupid but real for me; STATUS and what other people think; Challenged by the past.
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February 21, 2012 — Open Call
Creating community; Communicating your needs; Scarcity behind thought ‘The ONE and ONLY option”; Energetic healing and the flower opening and closing; When I get really tired….
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February 23, 2012 — Open Call
Sugar and snacks eating… shifting cravings; Trouble forgiving myself… event from 10 years ago; Disconnecting from some particular people to give myself more time and space; Engaging abdominal muscles before getting up to help back; How to find your spiritual teacher; Inspired… but only for 10 seconds; My memory; “I messed it ALL up!”.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Outgrowing People Without Making Them Wrong
- Self-Forgiveness After ‘I Messed It All Up’
- When Inspiration Dies Under Perfectionism
February 25, 2012 — What Scares You About Your Powerful Possibilities
Change and transparency; Confidence even if bucking cultural imperatives; I want to keep my Safe Space… and my naps!.
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February 29, 2012 — Open Call – Leaping Ahead
New career fears: health… and I seem to be cursed with bad luck; Recharge from tired (energy exercise); Frustrated trying to communicate with my husband; Couldn’t stop my racing heart.
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March 2012
March 7, 2012 — Open Call
Possibilities: Connection, Laughter, Sleep; Play, love, kisses, mutual lovership; Burst of extra flame; Relationship conflicts; Letting go of perfection; Recurring feeling that I’m gonna faceplant.
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March 10, 2012 — I Doubt Myself
I have to take care of his doubts; Am I being too much?; Doubting myself and my feelings; Doubts about dealing with sleep.
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March 15, 2012 — Being Scared Is Bad… Isn’t It?!?
Discerning different between scared and activated; Children don’t feel much; Scared of their judgment; Freeze in fear when I meet people; Okay to choose between detached and activated; I’m ready for some help.
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March 16, 2012 — Open Call
Plan for a situation that has been bothering me; Gut mix; Out of sync with my body; Not allowed to feel things as a child; Candida… I don’t feel well (balancing the energy of your internal flora); Energy work on sinuses and throat.
March 17, 2012 — Saying What You Want
If I ask and they say NO… I’l NEVER EVER GET IT.; Too big to handle asking; I’m not going to get what I want; How am I supposed to know ahead of time?; Graceful closure; The introvert.
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March 21, 2012 — Open Call
Still waking up at slight noises at night; Tuning into body needs; Sticking out… my accent was TOO funny to them; Praying to let go of the fear… honoring the part that is OVER; Frozen part of me trumps everything in certain situations.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Being Different, Being Seen, and Finding Your Tribe
- Hypervigilance and the Sleep That Never Feels Safe
March 26, 2012 — Comfort Zones and Dead Zones
What are they?; Different people start from different places; Knowing ourselves; Dead zones are where you have stagnated; Attraction has “good” tension; Not currently paying my bills; OK to be myself; Climb out of this nightmare.
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March 30, 2012 — Open Call
Putting myself out in the world; Safe place for inner children while I get a medical procedure done; Resistance towards these relatives; Fear about being able to remember what I want to remember.
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April 2012
April 2, 2012 — Commitment: Friend or Foe?
Safety, Respect, Freedom; Have an E-X-I-T… so you can say YES; Social stigma for not being married; I feel so rejected; My commitment to MYSELF.
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April 7, 2012 — Is It Safe To Feel Safe?
Boundaries of children; Layers of safety; Thought I was emotionally safe… and wasn’t; How to close off (which is good sometimes!); Challenge of safety among family.
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April 9, 2012 — Open Call
Incident three years ago, autistic girl and swimming pool.
April 11, 2012 — Open Call
Shame, Guilt, Forgiveness; Aren’t I supposed to save her?; Then I’d have to COMMIT!.
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April 18, 2012 — Open Call
Gym and celebrating; Frightened about my body… now want to love and accept it totally; How to make it safe and fun to go to a meeting; Book: Quiet (about introverts); Guilty if I leave my sister behind; Pity, Worry, Sadness… or peace.
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- Shame, Rescue, and the Belief You Must Save Them
- Social Safety for Introverts Coming Out of Seclusion
April 21, 2012 — Relationship Self-Esteem
Different Relationships evoke different things; What do I do when I am growing and my make isn’t?; Spiritual communication; Offering vibrational antidotes… not matching their vibration; Self doubt… self expression; Love buddy; Embracing my shameless dork.
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April 24, 2012 — Open Call
Expectations; Mosquito attack trauma; Big problem accessing memories; Stronger than what comes my way.
May 2012
May 1, 2012 — Open Call
My self-identity depends on doing stuff; Self-esteem bounces around; Specific memory from work… narcissist who would always twist things.
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May 9, 2012 — Letting Yourself Shine
Shine!; Turning up the shine… with happiness; Inner shine… allowed something to cover it; Hide …to Safe… to Shine.
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May 11, 2012 — Open Call
Touching myself – shouldn’t do that?; Molested and felt pleasure with the pain; Aversion to being photographed; Almost every night I feel vulnerable; My ability to receive.
May 12, 2012 — Open Call
Lot coming up… staying with the feelings; Almost died… love and trust right now; That dark place; I don’t need to help myself anymore, do I?; Mouth washed out with soap.
May 15, 2012 — Seeing My Beauty
Is it okay to be beautiful?; I was the pretty one… and now that is going away; Grief and long-term self-denial; Beauty is restricted to women; Ashamed and vulnerable in less clothes; I can’t be loved; Pretty people got it ALL!.
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May 22, 2012 — The Pain of Not Getting What I Want
The stories we tell ourselves; I’m not lovable; Why bother to even try?; What ACTUALLY happened?; Didn’t get what I wanted from my parents; “You are completely worthless!”; Tapping on the pain; Inviting my mind to look for ways I’m valuable.
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May 26, 2012 — Open Call
New Energy Space (How?); Remove filter that keeps me from Source; Door opening, exciting EDGE experience; Our world… It’s Not Judgement Based!; Failure and Success; Overthinking… hand in hand with anxiety; Head-Heart-Gut-Groin.
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May 29, 2012 — How To Deal With Expectations of Rejection
But he’s not going to like me; But it’s happened before; I have been rejected, right here at home; Afraid I won’t find someone to sit with; If I sense rejection, all the expectations come up; I’m not going to be good enough for them (clients); Books for publication… will it be well-received?; Rejection at home growing up and last marriage; His confidence is going down; It’s my fault….
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May 30, 2012 — Open Call
The slimy gooky medical system; Outbursts sometimes; My outbursts… in private; Coming out of my self-imposed seclusion.
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June 2012
June 2, 2012 — Open Call
I’m afraid of losing it all; Interviewing, having to jump through hoops for a job; Doctors gave me bad news.
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June 5, 2012 — Passion!
What if there was no passion in my family growing up?; I’m JUST RIGHT for MY LIFE; I reach a point where I have a stomach ache; Attuning to people; Shutting myself down to keep them comfortable.
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June 13, 2012 — Savoring Outcomes
Savoring the to-do check-off; Celebrate accomplishment; Remembering before sleep; I don’t have time for THAT!; Only when I “make a difference”.
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June 20, 2012 — Open Call
Decision to make… feels heavy, no energy… I’d like to ENJOY it!; Weight or burden on me; Speaking up!; Competence.
June 23, 2012 — Open Call
Yes-Yes!; My relationship with my sister; Holding space; Bully neighbors; Friend quite a victim… lots of landmines.
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June 27, 2012 — Open Call
Vibration and changing physiology; Releasing old dreams; What caused me to take on those burdens?; Getting out and social isolation; Years of walking on eggshells; Allowed myself to fully FEEL the emotions.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Holding Space Without Walking on Eggshells
- Outgrowing People Without Making Them Wrong
- Releasing Old Dreams and Borrowed Burdens
June 30, 2012 — What Is Your Next Positive Challenge to Yourself
I want to do more, but I’m too tired, it’s not for me; I want to focus on a worthy project; Need to find my tribe; Having a difficult conversation with my wife.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Being Different, Being Seen, and Finding Your Tribe
- Choose a Positive Challenge Your Body Can Accept
- Communicating With a Partner When Old Patterns Take Over
July 2012
July 6, 2012 — Open Call
Accessing childhood positive energy; Kneel on coach and look out the window; Sacred spots; Can’t see my inner child; Fun with morning walks; I was avid; Rollerskating.
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July 7, 2012 — Open Call
Heat A/C; Tips for grounding in the present; I choose to stop beating myself up and accept all of me; Knot in my stomach; Multitasking.
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- Grounding When Your Mind Is Doing Too Much
- Overthinking Anxiety: Returning to the Whole Body
- Self-Forgiveness After ‘I Messed It All Up’
July 11, 2012 — Celebrating Your Inner Beauty
The person you are working on being inside; Essence; Different from my form; Why is it easier to see someone else’s beauty?; Can I attract someone?; Connected more closely with friends than mates; My inner child comes out.
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July 17, 2012 — Open Call
Don’t HAVE to make them happy; Other planets and dimensions; Break the “law” and start to take care of me; Hamsters in my head.
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July 25, 2012 — Open Call
Camels and the circus; Enjoying a Day Dream; A cry-worthy thought; Feeling of not being All of Me in my life; Congenital skinny guy put on a few pounds….
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July 28, 2012 — Acknowledging The Positive Things
Partners; Walking up the scale; How we construe it; Happy & Grateful for ALL Reasons; Being yourself and allowing a peaceful observation; Appreciation for Thriving Now, Rick and Cathy; Someone to clean my house; Thriving Now Circle is at the top of my appreciation list!.
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August 2012
August 13, 2012 — Connecting with Your Own Heart: Self Love
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August 17, 2012 — Open Call
I’m doing a number on myself; Feel a lot of energy coming up; Guiding principles; Should’ve!.
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August 21, 2012 — How Mindfulness in Relationships Can Energize Your Connection
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August 24, 2012 — Open Call
Open-ended, Open-hearted; Inside I’m crying after surgery; 15-20lbs NEED to go AWAY!; Freezing… way outside my comfort zone; Finances: Not knowing where to start, no one taught me!; Guided meditation.
August 29, 2012 — Open Call
I can love and accept my body and my skin; Repeating pattern at work; Sent letter to creditor that I am not going to pay.
September 2012
September 1, 2012 — Open Call
Procrastinating about certain things; Lifestyle design – spiritual energy management; Crown chakra; Comfortable nest and invitations; Who am I as a person? Friendly, helping, enthusiastic, optimistic.
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September 4, 2012 — How I Feel Is Not Who I Am
Just because we feel something, doesn’t make it who we are; Changing associations from negative self-talk to positive reflection; Depleted!; Exceptionally bitter and aggressive feelings; Tired of my own stories, getting out there.
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September 13, 2012 — Romance 101
5 Love Languages; 5 Languages of Apology; Boundaries & Pleasing other people; Obligation.
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September 15, 2012 — Open Call
Food, emotions, and how I digest everything; Headache every month; Energy in, energy out, recalibrate; Goddess cycle rituals; Rollercoaster… building up to this.
September 19, 2012 — Open Call
Crick in my neck; “It really is safe this time.”; Issues going back to my own home town… not my tribe; Being myself; Don’t want to slow down; Website listing on internet after 7 days of them being stupid.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Being Different, Being Seen, and Finding Your Tribe
- Social Safety for Introverts Coming Out of Seclusion
September 26, 2012 — Open Call
Beliefs: That is DUMB; Only people who make money around here are white people; Doing something quite strange in conversations with my husband; “I am” statements, especially “I am safe.”; Anger, upset, and follow-up on internet website issues.
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October 2012
October 1, 2012 — Open Call
Vortex of elation; Tree beauty; Block to reading when I am “supposed” to; My entitled daughter who I share with my ex.
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October 10, 2012 — Choosing Joy
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October 13, 2012 — Open Call
Contact improv dance; Frustration with my body image; If I have to do it myself, I’m a lonely loser… right?; Heart warmth.
October 16, 2012 — Open Call
Coasting since my move; Insomnia; Gap between me and my husband; Food sensitivities.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Communicating With a Partner When Old Patterns Take Over
- Hypervigilance and the Sleep That Never Feels Safe
October 24, 2012 — Open Call
New career… freezing when I get down to nitty gritty; Dealing with criticism; Being Out There.
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October 27, 2012 — Taming Your Spooky Fears
Stop and look at our fears; I had to have one eye open; He has to be here to protect me; Fear about getting vulnerable; Sharing with others… and they turn away; I have to radiate smart.
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October 31, 2012 — Open Call
Rick rib pain; Last few days falling back into tension; I give my body permission to relax; Anger and self-blame in my stomach; Vulnerability… and walking the new walk; Feel lost… how to move towards contentment and play.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Permission to Relax Without Losing Love or Momentum
- Vulnerability With Resilience
- When a New Career Activates Old Visibility Fear
November 2012
November 7, 2012 — Open Call
Even though this feels too big…; Trouble adjusting to living where I work; Would the Universe stopping loving me if I slow down?; Should I keep doing my computer biz?.
Guides drawn from this session:
- Permission to Relax Without Losing Love or Momentum
- When Rest Threatens Your Identity
- When ‘Supposed To’ Makes the Task Harder
November 9, 2012 — Open Call
Vulnerability and closeness and farewell sadness; Spiritual reality predominance; I feel connected but not like before; Body red alert.
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November 14, 2012 — Open Call
Feels like asthma tension; Crying and vulnerability; Hermit: done for the day by three; Sensing beyond overcautiousness.
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November 17, 2012 — Releasing the Brakes on Your Life by Clearing Old Traumas
Boy I’m feeling vulnerable!; When we get to know people, it feels more vulnerable; When we meet others and they are vulnerable.
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November 19, 2012 — Finding Ease Around Family
Family ease and boundaries; Hurt and sadness around family (and not being around them); Draining my energy subconsciously.
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November 21, 2012 — Open Call
Zone when I leave fight or flight; Support for nephew girlfriend… the right boundaries for us; Associate power with negativity; Inner tapping… feeling like little baby sitter.
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November 27, 2012 — Taking Risks
Horrendous fear of people saying She Failed; Getting over fear of tapping; Big Exciting One!.
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November 29, 2012 — Open Call
Dentist and vibration thing going on; Feeling of shame; My EASY button changed the tone.
December 2012
December 3, 2012 — Open Call
I am athletic… I was afraid to let that out; Low back acting up; Love myself the way I am.
December 8, 2012 — Changing Your Energy Flow to Allow More Abundance
Holding onto the nervousness; Relaxing the pre-conditions; Practicing opening up; Seeing it through the Energy Window.
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December 19, 2012 — Releasing Old Hurts from Holidays Past
My mother ruined every holiday; It was NOT fair; They said I was getting too skinny; Setting boundaries with my family of origin.
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December 22, 2012 — Open Call
Goodwill giving; They might leave me… I miss that security; Success with my Mom but tired of reverting to food; Crying in the shower.
December 26, 2012 — Decompressing and Reconnecting Post-Christmas
Gentle with yourself; Noticing what works for you; Declare no fighting until we’re rested; Reconnect with what you have in your life right now; Spending time with HER; Banned from their lives; Unjustly accused of something.
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December 28, 2012 — Open Call
New Year’s Rituals; Guilt around letting go of items; On to new home!; Behavioral changes, many intentions, some too heavy; My radio show; Things that protect me.
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