These 2010 sessions include focused teaching and open exploration, primarily facilitated by Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli with community contributors in some sessions.
Begin with one of the refined Guides below, or browse the original recordings chronologically. Each transcript was generated automatically and may contain errors.
Focused Guides
- Boundaries: Yours, Mine, and Ours
- Business Trauma
- Fear of Fear
- Financial Trauma
- Forgiveness For Myself and Others
- Freedom To Express Myself
- Gratitude Party
- Guilt and Shame
- I Can’t Slow Down, I Might Feel…
- I Doubt Myself
- I Feel Betrayed
- I Just Don’t Want To Feel This
- I Take on Too Much Responsibility
- If Love Wasn’t Your First Language, You Can Still Become Fluent
- I’m Afraid to Feel Good, I Can’t Enjoy Myself
- I’m So Worried About Money
- I’m Sorry, So Sorry!
- I’m Too Needy
- Jealousy
- Letting Go of Expectations
- Letting Go of Holiday Stress
- Love Pain
- Medical Support Is Not an Energetic Failure
- Mother’s Day
- Oh Dad, How Could You…?
- Oh The Time I’ve Lost – These Old Regrets
- Old Endings New Beginnings
- Procrastination
- Rejection Hurts!
- Self Nurturing
- Stop Asking What’s Wrong With Me: Better Questions for Clarity
- Supporting an Adult Child Without Letting Guilt Decide
- The Perfect Job for Now: A Two-List Exercise for a Better Job Search
- Their Judgements are Stopping Me!
- Thriving Business Q&A
- Thriving Business Round Table
- Too Much Stress
- Transitions
- Trauma-9/11
- Trust You?? No Way!
- Use What Helps Without Buying the Whole Story
- What Would It Take To Feel More Free?
- When Big Questions Make Life Feel Unsafe
- When Suffering Became the Only Way to Be Heard
- When The Pain Comes Back
- Why Healing Progress Can Be Hard to Notice
- Why Old Patterns Can Get Loud After a Breakthrough
- You Can’t Get Clarity While One Choice Means Failure
- You Don’t Have to Find the Gift in What Hurt You
Guides Drawing From Several Sessions
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The sessions are arranged chronologically. Recording titles and topic notes, where available, can help you find a useful starting point.
January 2010
January 4, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-04 Open Call
Anxiety and panic over last couple of weeks; More alone than normal; Not safe to trust anyone; Could be taken away at any moment; Unemployed for a year… focus on ways jobs DON’T fit; Attributes of my perfect job for NOW… and what that job can expect from me; Feeling overwhelmed… sensitive; Shock from husband’s cancer journey; Happy Birthday!
Guides drawn from this session:
January 7, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-07 Open Call
Dread of doing the social thing; Don’t want to ride the roller coaster with my son; What will I do if it doesn’t work?; Not connecting well with people.
January 10, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-10 Open Call
It’s not safe to be me; Am I a good employee?; Car accident yesterday; Adjusting to all these good changes; Feeling safe around relationships.
January 12, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-12 Open Call
I don’t listen “right”; I don’t want to screw this up; Anxious about feeling good; Want to feel more in charge; Carrying too much.
January 22, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-22
Layer of fear around having a second child; Hungover and sad… I miss the way we ran the group together; “I’m going to get in trouble.”.
Guides drawn from this session:
January 26, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-26
Rules about food and relaxing; Being misunderstood; The upside of success; The sound of my voice; Embarrassment about an old job.
January 30, 2010 — Team Call 2010-01-30
Dissapointment in relationship; Painful experience with ex; Standing up for myself; Unsafe in childhood home; Intense pain.
Guides drawn from this session:
February 2010
February 9, 2010 — Team Call 2010-02-09 Open Call
Emotional boundaries; Behind at work, need to do more; Anxiety through the roof; Don’t I have to be immediately availible?; Choking feeling in throat; All over the place, triggered.
February 12, 2010 — Team Call 2010-02-12 Open Call
Identity issues and a Failed Procedure; My father humiliated me (and I have an inability to talk in public); Embarassment and shame; Feeling inadequate job hunting.
February 18, 2010 — Team Call 2010-02-17 Open Call
Frozen from the family dynamic; Mortal fear of embarrassment; Anger and tension in my head; Distorted body image, it’s the only thing I have to believe in.
February 21, 2010 — Team Call 2010-02-21 Open Call
How dare I be so presumptous?; A good man is a good man; Tapping anxiety party; Can’t let go because I would be happy; Not living up to mom’s expectations.
February 24, 2010 — Team Call 2010-02-24 Open Call
Stunned, Empty, All over the place; Blocks to creativity (why am I at this painting workshop anyway?); Lightening up; Anger in my headache over other people’s agendas for me.
March 2010
March 9, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-09 Open Call
Fear of not getting it right; PMS symptoms; Little kid, out of control; Caught in a spiders web; Stress and tension in stomach.
March 10, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-10 Open Call
Embarassed by my binging; All sorts of resistance to giving a talk; Does my husband really need to “get it”?; I feel jumpy and under attack; Falling into something.
March 13, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-13 Open Call
Emeshed with sister, how much responsibility is mine?; Broken wrist, cast heavy and tight; Nervousness when feeling good; Back hurting from moving boxes.
March 16, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-16 Open Call
My negative self-talk… useless, stupid, lazy; My life has been one big trauma; Battle of wills with men; Time to take care of myself; Sloppy!; Body feels sluggish… what does your body want?
March 25, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-25 Open Call
Procrasturbating; Connecting to Source; Strength in Diversity; Helping People with EFT (when they don’t respond to your offer); Energy & Overwhelm.
March 30, 2010 — Team Call 2010-03-30 Open Call
Toxic relationships; Family stress; Pissed of at life; Mom was triggered, was it my fault?; High blood pressure.
April 2010
April 3, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-03 Open Call
How much should I support my adult son?; Emotional dumping; Releasing the dread of the future; Empowered dream about younger selves; I’m getting old so other people make decisions for me.
Guides drawn from this session:
April 6, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-06 Open Call
Headache; Getting hyped up; Tuning the guitar; Furiously angry; Tears… feeling crappy… no energy; Negative matras; Clear awareness of my guidance.
April 13, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-13 Open Call
Boundaries; Receding gums; Acne on my face; Mom’s mental illness; Tightness of protection; Love as a “second language”.
Guides drawn from this session:
April 17, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-17 Open Call
Laws of the Universe; Eczema and my adverse reaction to the sun; Stomach stirring; Meeting with the BOSS.
April 22, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-22 Open Call
Hip bursitis and moving forward; House ready to put on the market, but what do I do with his library?; Eating issues and lots of emotional stuffing; My father was enraged and my inner child is terrified; Getting paid to work with people using EFT.
April 28, 2010 — Team Call 2010-04-28 Open Call
What if I lead them down the wrong path?; Really irritable; I should have done more; Emotional Clutter; Arm still hurts; He doesn’t love me, does he?; Appreciating my body; Healing my gums.
May 2010
May 5, 2010 — Team Call 2010-05-05 Open Call
I need my weight to be noticed; Fears coming up all over; How do I not go down a chute?; Stuff is starting to manifest- oh no!; Fear in my belly.
May 12, 2010 — Team Call 2010-05-12 Open Call
Fear of getting anything nice… someone will take it from me!; Pissed as hell; Cat sick, husband hysterical; Core belief: Do everything myself; Obligated if I ask for help.
Guides drawn from this session:
May 19, 2010 — Team Call 2010-05-18 Open Call
I don’t deserve that; Lots of resistance to tapping; Can’t play if you have things to take care of; Afraid to use stuff up; I am not accepted for who I am.
May 28, 2010 — Team Call 2010-05-28 Open Call
Drama!; Really good at taking care of OTHERS; Confused about clarity; Dreams of connection; Affirmations… including ones that don’t feel quite right.
May 31, 2010 — Team Call 2010-05-31 Open Call
If I’m not perfect I’ll be punished; Tension headache; I’m too difficult; Telling dad to back off; Fear about surgery.
June 2010
June 10, 2010 — Team Call 2010-06-10 Open Call
Anger and rage coming out sideways; Impatience and frustration; I can’t have boundaries with them and it makes me angry (then they pick on me); It’s my fault! And he’s a big od fat grouch…; Dealing with other people’s anger.
June 14, 2010 — Team Call 2010-06-14 Open Call
When I say no to her, she gets so sad; Discouraged… all over my body; Second guessing myself; Confused about wanting to break up with my boyfriend.
June 22, 2010 — Team Call 2010-06-22 Open Call
Overwhelmed… Mixed energy… errands and obligations; Bad pain in my feet; Anger! He’s not listening!; My mother used me.
June 23, 2010 — Open Call
Emotional patterns do not make us bad or defective; Listening to the body without forcing it; Availability, healthy rest, and boundaries; Catching catastrophic what-ifs; Tapping with resentment and the freeze response.
July 2010
July 6, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-06 Open Call
Really hard time not having an air conditioner; Little overwhelmed because I can’t DO anything… even though I just had surgery; Other people’s pain and body YES and body NO.
July 9, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-09 Open Call
Who am I?; Procrastination; Supposed to have wonderful things for everyone else, not for me; If I’m beautiful, I will never be hurt.
July 13, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-13 Open Call
Too old to learn marketing, so discouraged; Need to get motivated; How can I give myself a break?; I don’t deserve to move forward, I didn’t fix them; I don’t deserve help or good things.
July 21, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-20 Open Call
Anything good will be taken away; No one is going to hear me; Panic attack; No desire to do work; Big scary questions; Not ready.
Guides drawn from this session:
July 23, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-23 Open Call
Eye still blurry which is tiring and exhausting; My eyes as vibrational receptors; Fear about participating in life; Shyness and irrational beliefs.
July 31, 2010 — Team Call 2010-07-31 Open Call
It has to be hard to make high vibration money; I don’t know how to be safe; I’m a bad person; Not the best, not good enough.
Guides drawn from this session:
August 2010
August 4, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-04 Open Call
Body Listening; Affiliation; Noise from the bar next door disturbs me.
Guides drawn from this session:
August 7, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-07 Open Call
My inner binger; Don’t know what want to do; Should I or shouldn’t I?; Overwhelming clutter.
August 10, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-10 Open Call
Going home, anxiety!; Still in the same soup; Wanting to isolate; Resistance to $5 more a month.
August 15, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-15 Open Call
Backache – holding worry; Afraid to believe I’ll get better; Energy drain when poke fun at my weight; Will I become fit again?
August 21, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-21 Open Call
You’re right dear!; I need to be the perfect life; I’m trying my best, but it doesn’t always turn out.; Mom’s yes and no.
August 25, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-25 Open Call
Couldn’t stop my anxiety in the library; Procrastination and my website; House inspection issue; 8 rainy hours; Allow my body to rest and renew today.
August 30, 2010 — Team Call 2010-08-30 Open Call
Binging at night; Business opening up but not materializing; 2009 taxes not done; Not enough, obligation; Can’t decide; What to do with this pain?
September 2010
September 15, 2010 — Team Call 2010-09-15 Open Call
Can’t trust money, it won’t be there for me; Nervous about going to the conference, I won’t know what to do; Blocks to loving myself; All these years of pain.
September 29, 2010 — Team Call 2010-09-29 Open Call
Have to make a video about me for work, showing myself; Medical issues, setting boundaries and saying whats right for me; Hard to say “I am awesome”; Afraid of being judged.
September 30, 2010 — Team Call 2010-09-30 Open Call
Something that is covering up my feelings; Physical symptom with no pain but lots of mental anguish; Went off on something; Not safe to be happy; Happy Happy ooops! Happy oops oops Happy Happy HAPPY HAPPY ooops Happy oops.
October 2010
October 7, 2010 — Team Call 2010-10-07 Open Call
G.I. tract giving me trouble; Stupid, awkward, wrong, scared; Body wisdom; Weird, mystery, ashamed of myself and feeling very bad.
October 9, 2010 — Team Call 2010-10-09 Open Call
I am a sinner; It’s all my responsibility; I’m nervous because nothings wrong!; Canker sores, the well worn path?; I suffered so they would hear me.
Guides drawn from this session:
October 14, 2010 — Team Call 2010-10-13 Open Call
Overwhelmed with life; He’s distressed so I can’t ask him for what he owes me; I want to be a strong presence at this conference; Uncomfortably numb.
October 20, 2010 — Team Call 2010-10-20 Open Call
Miscarriage… am I not supposed to have another baby? Sad, terrified.; Huge sadness… watched all the time.; Worried about my unemployed son; Balance / extremes; Presentation for 25 people; Angry! They are not living up to their contract!
October 27, 2010 — Team Call 2010-10-27 Open Call
Afraid I’ll have to shut this down.; It must be my job to fix this.; They’re not going to get a piece of me.; Terrified of needles.; Oh no, I did it again.
November 2010
November 4, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-04 Open Call
Work = Obligation; It’s not ok for me to talk.; Aching legs; Pain in my shoulder.; Trying to work on myself using EFT.
November 5, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-05 Open Call
Renter’s dilemma; Not right for me to ask; Strange dreams; Inner collapse.
Guides drawn from this session:
November 13, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-13 Open Call
Stuck around clutter; Afraid to get back to work again.; No around Thanksgiving.; Not moving forward.; Disappointment in face.
November 19, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-18 Open Call
Fibromyalgia, really tired.; I’m not doing it right.; I don’t have the courage to travel.; Reprogramming the fear response.
November 20, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-20 Open Call
Feeling guilty, I kept running away.; Trouble knowing what I want.; What its not right?; Hidden gifts.
Guides drawn from this session:
November 30, 2010 — Team Call 2010-11-30 Open Call
Nose thing, not clear; Want to move forward with a project; Giving myself permission; Angry at ex-husband and his family; Speaking up… feeling in my throat / chest.
December 2010
December 3, 2010 — Team Call 2010-12-02 Open Call
They want to tell me how to dress.; Have to be perfect “enough”.; New way of looking at Dad.; Never got to shine, I think it’s my time.; You can’t do that again.
December 8, 2010 — Team Call 2010-12-06 Open Call
A good person would have an answer.; This is serious!; Jealous and betrayed; I don’t know what to tap on; I don’t want to be mindful.
December 15, 2010 — Team Call 2010-12-14 Open Call
Unwilling to heal this; Greif is a call to recalibrate our system; Inner conflict, feeling stuck; Lots going on; I won’t do it right; I did everything right, and my blood pressure is still too high.
Guides drawn from this session:
December 16, 2010 — Team Call 2010-12-16 Open Call
I don’t take care of myself; Scattered; Grieving loss of my dogs; Eating mindfully; I need to be punished.
December 20, 2010 — Team Call 2010-12-20 Open Call
I need a lot of pressure to get stuff done; Christmas at work is terrible; I lost my joy.