– “Good” and “bad” expectations.
– Unrealistic expecations
– Expectations of self and body
– Wanted them to notice what I’d done
– Pain, expected my body to heal
– It always comes back!
– I’ve taken care of everyone since I was a kid
– I MUST make them happy
– I have to make up for all that time
– I have to save them, no one else will
– My parents needed me to be in charge
– I’d have to be less afraid
– Bigger business, better wife, perfect product
– Compulsion to have “it”
– Self-judgements getting in the way of my dream
– Too much shame
– Too difficult, they won’t like me
– Just can’t!
– Never encouraged
– Stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about!
– Slapped down
– Oher people’s judgements
– Out of control
