How can I trust God? I’m so mad and hurt by the things that have happened in my life, and recently I got some unexpected bad news. I heard one of you say that God can handle any of our emotions. But I’m afraid if I show God my anger, he’ll punish me. — Andi
Note: Different people have different words for “all that is”. Some people call it Source, Universe, God, Higher Power…there are hundreds of names. Law of Attraction just assumes that there is something larger than ourselves, and that something is benevolent, loving, and kind. Feel free to change the word God to whatever works for you, and use he or she or it to refer to that power as you feel comfortable. Because Andi used “God”, that’s the word we’ll use in this article. We don’t think God cares what we call her/him/it, as long as we call…
God can handle whatever you feel. Including the bad stuff, including the blame and anger. Some of us grow up thinking we can hide our emotions and thoughts from God, and still have a connection- but its hard to feel open and trusting of anyone if we have “secrets.” And if God is all knowing, wouldn’t he/she already know you were angry?
We understand. It’s hard to trust God when so much has happened in your life. And if you’re feeling ungrateful, it’s really okay to say that and express it. We do feel awful sometimes. We are ungrateful sometimes. If we tap, we don’t have to stay there… but trying to force yourself out of that feeling before you’re ready doesn’t work really well. It just leaves us resentful and disconnected.
If it feels right, you can do some more tapping on this. We have been really honest with God about what we felt, including calling God lots of really bad names and sharing hatred and fury and resentment. Neither of us have been struck by lightening yet… and we felt calmer and more connected afterwards. (Cathy adds: I personally have used stronger words than are in this script, too. If cursing feels right, let God have it! While you tap, of course…) Feel free to change the words as you like.
Karate Chop: Hi God. I want you to know I HATE you… You BETRAYED me… You LET ME DOWN… I’ve been working so hard, trying to heal and feel more connected to you and you send me THIS?! How can I possibly trust you?!
You’re supposed to be so powerful, and you let this happen. What were you thinking?! I feel like you don’t love me and that crushes my heart. I am SO mad at you and I want to hurt you somehow.
Part of me is afraid to tell you this, but it is the truth. I want to trust you and feel loved by you, but this hurts too much. This is too big. I want to kick you in the shins. I want to pull your hair. I am afraid you’ll punish me for being angry…but I’m open to feeling your calm, loving, forgiving presence instead.
Top of the Head: I HATE you God.
Eyebrow: How could you let this happen?
Side of the Eye: Why would you allow this?
Under the Eye: I don’t understand.
Under the Nose: I try to be good.
Chin: I try to be loving.
Collarbone: And I’ve been working so hard.
Under the Arm: How can I trust you?
Top of the Head: I feel betrayed.
Eyebrow: I need to let this anger out.
Side of the Eye: I hope you’re strong enough to take it God.
Under the Eye: Cause here it comes!
Under the Nose: I HATE YOU.
Chin: You let me down!
Collarbone: I’m not sure how to trust you.
Under the Arm: Not after this!
Top of the Head: So much has happened.
Eyebrow: I’m not sure how to deal with this.
Side of the Eye: I could use your help with this anger.
Under the Eye: I could use some help with my fear.
Under the Nose: Even though I hate you…
Chin: Please help me.
Collarbone: Show me in LOTS of ways…
Under the Arm: That you love me deeply.
Top of the Head: And will help me through this.
Take a deep breath.
Does that help at all??
As scientists at heart, we like to base our beliefs at least SOMEWHAT on observation. We have not observed that anyone anywhere…no matter how holy or lovely or divine in their energy… is immune from: broken hearts, disease, cancer… you name it. Therefore, we cannot base OUR understanding of God on the notion that he is someone doling out favors and treats to the Good Boys and Girls… and punishing the others with disease. We see NO EVIDENCE of this.
We are not JUST physical Rick and Cathy. We have a non-physical reality, too. Call it spirit or soul, it is the Me, and the You, and the We that existed before we came into this earth world and will exist after and that has the eternal relationship with Source.
There may be places in this Universe where Souls go to have the Perfect Vacation… where fires only are used to roast marshmallows and keep us warm, where our arrivals and departures are always celebrated, where the food is always perfect and plentiful, the shoes always fit, and the friends are always true.
If there is such a Heaven, it is not this world. It is not this rock. It is not this vacation/incarnation.
We have friends whose idea of a great vacation is to rough it, to take only what they can carry on their back, to develop strength and endurance as they explore realms they have never seen before. We’d call them crazy… except…
It seems that life here on Earth for all of us is going to be a mix of deep intimacy and cold loneliness, of warm embraces and harsh breakups, of delicious foods savored with friends and… vomit. Who amongst us has not puked?
Loving God and trusting God seems to only come from knowing a broader truth, that Life is not begun and ended here, that on some deep level we are each an excited participant in a life here that challenges us… where our friends are challenged… where we cross new rivers and climb new mountains… even if we do so in pain and struggle and tears and shit. And at the end of THIS “vacation” we will most certainly have a story to tell. Just as we share our stories now.
We know that during the darkest times, when the noise gets stripped away, the God has guided us in making the “most” out of the precious time we get on this earth journey. By “most,” it doesn’t necessarily ever mean the most uninterrupted joy. It means sometimes moments of intimacy shared when sick, or when you hold someone’s hand because you would fall over if they were not there. The ONLY difference we can see between a cursed life and a Blessed Life is the perspective of the participant. And that, we do believe, we can always shift with God’s help.
Tapping while telling the truth of what you’re feeling RIGHT NOW, is powerful. And incredibly healing. Sometimes it takes a lot of courage to speak the truth, or to even admit what it is. Having the support of a caring and insightful group of people can make all the difference. It can sooth your soul and bring peace much quicker. If you are interested in finding community to share with, there are groups on many cities and towns. Meetup.com and Yahoo Groups can be great places to find connection. And our Group Coaching Program is our personal favorite place to share honestly in a place of warmth and understanding.